Darren sighed and leaned into Chris´ touch, still making sure to keep him close. Darren wanted to sleep and his eyes were already burning from having to stay open for so long, but it still felt like he couldn´t let go, like his body and mind hadn´t fully understood that this wasn´t a dream and that Chris was actually there.
“I know…” he whispered eventually and tilted his head to press his lips against the other man´s again, sighing deeply. He didn´t want to be like this, he hated making Chris worry about him, and if he was being honest Darren had to admit that he hadn´t been liking himself very much during the last few weeks. He closed his eyes and tried to relax a little, curling up against his boyfriend´s side. “Can you just…tell me something? Anything really…just…I want to hear your voice,” Darren asked quietly.
Chris slid his hand through Darren’s hair gently, nuzzling and staying close to him.
He kissed his boyfriend back gently, nudging his nose against his. He bit his lip and kept rubbing at Darren’s scalp and his other hand rested on his side gently. He held him close, nodding softly. “I - yeah,” Chris chuckled. “Wow, I never thought anyone would tell me that. Ever…,” he mumbled and kissed his forehead. “Well…let’s see…what could I talk about,” Chris rambled, grinning. “When I was younger I had horrible, horrible ways of sleeping and I also was overweight - as you saw in some pictures probably. One day when it was extremely bad and I honestly couldn’t sleep - or so I thought I apparently walked downstairs without tripping which is a huge thing for me and made myself some cereal. When my mother came downstairs in the morning she practically found me cuddling with the cereal bowl,” Chris laughed and shook his head. “At least Hannah had her fun with that…”
Darren sighed at the way Chris´ hands were rubbing over his back and he leaned in closer, pressing his lips to every inch of skin he could reach. Darren hated that he was being like this, but he was tired and had been pretty lonely during the last few weeks, even though he´s had a blast on his tour, but he still had missed Chris, and the fact that he hadn´t known what exactly was happening between them had made it all just worse.
“I know…” he whispered after a while and sighed, leaning his head against his boyfriend´s chest. “I´m sorry I make you worry that much…but I´m not exactly fond of sleeping anymore,” there was another sigh before Darren looked up, his eyes searching for Chris´. “But …I can try…if that makes you feel better, I just…I want us both to be okay,”
Chris kept Darren close, rubbing his hands over his arms gently before they wrapped around his torso. He hated that Darren had felt like that all along and kept him close, smiling at him weakly as he kissed his cheek.
He pulled him even closer and sighed deeply, kissing the top of his head. “Don’t be sorry…I just hope you’ll be able to sleep now that you’re here with me,” he whispered and nuzzled against his hair. He looked back at his boyfriend and slid his hand through his curls carefully. Chris nuzzled closer and shrugged. “Dare…I can’t make you sleep, really…I just wish you could because you’re safe here,” he whispered.